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i always thought i lived when you exsisted.
it was truly the only way around.
my mind and thoughts since you left are far more twisted.
and i am like i always have been--begging to be found.
you made me fall in love with you.
you made me fall faster than i breathe.
but for the final last time we are through.
memories in my head of you i will forever weave.
in a way i thank you as my mistake.
if it wasn't for you i wouldn't have got out.
it was you that did the final wake up shake.
in my head this is done and there is no doubt.
so to you: i wish you death and suffering.
even though i know between us there is still loving.